See + Listen + Hear = Gossips ahaks

Wondering..

2011-07-08T17:26:00.002+08:00

30th June was my late father's birthday. We (family excluding little brother and eldest brother in law) were celebrating it (with yassin and prayers as gift) for the first time without him.

Everybody looked fine but deep inside i know we felt the same. Missing him so much.. Mom cried during her prayer time. There were no words we can say to calm her down. It really hurts losing someone you love so much.

It makes me wonder.. Would i be missed if i die? Or will they forget me after a few months? Would they compliment me or condemning me? Im sure people who hates me have a lot to say ＝)

2011-06-30T05:40:00.003+08:00

When time goes by, people change and life take a new course. Promises are broken. The people who were in your life are now forgotten.

Friends.. A few type of friends. One who used to be your close friends are now become strangers. One who were strangers are now your friends. The one who stayed are so hard to find especially the one who would go through the good and the bad times with you.

Happy friends? A lot! You got what they want, they'll stay as long as they need you.

I had a friend who were afraid to get close with someone caused he was afraid to be forgotten, and yet he is the one who forgets. Another one even said that he didnt want to get close with his friends caused he just don't go extra miles. Friends who care are just too good for him. Why does he have to care when he just couldn't be bothered? Hey, its much more easier to make more new friends and move on than staying with the old ones. I even have a friend who cares for me too much that she needs to backstab me to show it! One friend even stole my diary to make it easier to 'understand' me when in a good mood and to spread rumours when she wasnt.

Me? I don't know which type am i. I just know that promises are bound to be broken. Jewels are hard to find (i managed to get a few rare ones), people change and i care to much of people who care less.

I have no one to thank except myself.. Maybe im just not a good friend enough. For the one who stayed, thank you for being my friend. For the one who doesn't need me anymore.. thank you for the happy moment, for the pain, for successfully making me feel unwanted and for all the memories.

I kept telling myself not to care, not to bother but i know i couldn't caused i care too much before and i just couldn't stop caring as long as i live eventhough forever means never to them.

daymare..not nightmare

2011-06-18T07:27:00.000+08:00

hubby had a bad dream at about 6am. I was talking to my mom when i heard him panicking and calling my name.

When we rushed into the room, my first thought was 'is my baby and hubby ok?'. Luckily it was just a dream..

Ya Allah, lindungilah keluargaku daripada segala mala petaka dan hasutan syaitan yg dilaknat. Amin.

busy and tiring but fun!

2011-06-12T19:56:00.001+08:00

yesterday was kind of a great day. Both my older sisters came with their family. Chilling out and had a movie marathon. Its been a while we didnt have a family gathering. When my dad was alive, he was always excited when the family were together. He was a fun and loving guy. It feels incomplete without him =')

later in the afternoon, my uncles and aunties from Limbang came. Nice.. It felt like raya eve.

At night, the ibl boys, ahmad, hafiz, mubdi and wafiy, came to visit and gaming. Eventhough i didnt play much but i was happy to have a 'chill' session with them. Thanks to mubdi to suggest it. It sure lift my mood..

By the end of the day, i was doggone tired. Felt asleep by oneish. Unfortunately, my baby thought it was daytime at 2am. I was half awake until 5am and saved by my mom.

The title says it all =D

Different Sizes

2011-06-10T05:27:00.002+08:00

My little hero finally latched on when i tried to breast feed him at dawn (too lazy to warm up his milk).

Started with the right one and he doze off. Burped him and put him on his crib. 5 mins later, he was crying for milk again. I tried with the left and again after a while, he was dozing on and off. Suddenly, he started to grumble while drinking and then lose his patience.. So i gave up and fixed some warm milk for him.

I was humming to myself, concentrating on the milk when i realised something seems different..

OMG! I have different sizes of breasts :s left one is much bigger than the right!

*sigh* back to the breast pump for me.

Counter

2011-06-09T18:37:00.002+08:00

My lovely visitor counter was missing since last year. Crap! Now i upload a new one. Not that pretty though coz i was in a hurry to finish it up. Tired and my back hurts. I cant even stand straight at the moment ahaha how old can i look??

cry cry crying all the way~

2011-06-09T09:43:00.000+08:00

My son's latest hobby is crying. No matter what you do, he'll just scream his head off. We've tried every methods to calm him down.. Asian? European? Everything! You name it, we have tried it.

Any more suggestions?

breast pump

2011-06-08T15:10:00.001+08:00

no one ever tell me that breast pump can injured the user. My wrist hurts a lot and to make it worse, i nearly fall on my butt and my injured wrist manage to save my butt but unfortunately make the pain more worse!

Bathing the baby and changing the diaper is a no no. Luckily i can still lift and carry him but not without bone cracking pain.

I should have buy the electric pump rather than manual pump. Oh crap!

being a mom

2011-06-08T14:01:00.001+08:00

TOUGH!! Im not kidding. I wonder how those wonderful women especially my mother, my inlaws and my sisters do it. I only have one baby and i felt like i have more than one.

My baby had jaundice on his second day on earth, then he vomits always via his nose (which feels like hell break loose when it happened), had a cold, swollen punctured upper arm (after injection), tummy ache etc.. A very long list for someone who was just born 34days ago!

Sleepless night and bedroom quarrels seem to happen a lot but alhamdullilah, my hubby is very understanding and helpful. He's a natural! A huge compliment for someone who never hold a newborn baby before. I guess im just one of the lucky ladies :D

Baby boy!!

2011-06-01T11:11:00.001+08:00

Alhamdullilah, i've been blessed with a baby boy on 5th May, 2011. Weighed 3.080kg and 53cm in height, we named him Muhammad Aisar.

The moment in the labour room was the longest. I had an early labour on the 3rd May with a lot of clear discharge. Had a minor backache and was admitted on the 4th. My water didnt break but my membrane was bulging. I was flushed that night and started to have contractions by midnight which i tried to sleep it off.

At 3am, the midwife however noticed that i was sleeping restlessly and decided to monitor my contractions. 4 minutes apart! I was moved to labour room by 4.30am. I walked all the way. Sms my hubby, who decided to tell everyone.

At 6am, my whole family was there. My inlaws, my sis inlaw (a midwife), my mother, my 2nd sis (a midwife) and my 3rd sis. I went out to meet them and still managed to smile as the pain wasnt that strong.

At 7am, i started to have major contractions. I was 4cm dilated. Worst pain ever! I think i nearly pulled off my hubby's arm :s

by 10.45am, i was running out of energy. With no painkiller given (the happy gas thingie was broken), i started to cry out for my mom. My mom came in and my hubby went out. I was 9cm dilated but the baby wasn't fully engaged.

Along the way, the doctors decided to vaccuum out the baby but my midwife, qa choy and the other nurses, zidah, sister nasib and my sis inlaw tried hard to avoid it.

At 11.29 am, with their encouragement and my mom's support, i finally delivered my baby naturally.

His eyes were open, listening to his new surrounding. My mom panicked and asked why the baby wasnt crying. He cried as if he understood.

While i was fixed up, he was taken out to the lobby to meet the family plus his great uncle, my lil brother and my eldest sister.

I slept the whole day until 5pm. They managed to breast feed my baby without waking me up..

Happy, tired and bruised, i would do it again :D

2nd trimester

2010-12-26T23:22:00.001+08:00

Baby is being so active, kicking around in the tummy especially at night. Heard the 1st heart beat on 30th Nov appointment. Had nightmares maybe because i think too much. Been trying out a few maternity pants borrowed from my 2nd sis but most of it dont fit *sigh* i need to buy maternity clothes fast as im running out of t-shirts that fit. Looking forward to the trip next week. I couldnt wait.

Babies

2010-11-26T05:11:00.000+08:00

Im so excited!! I cant wait for my babies to be born! My sister's son and my bro-in-law's baby.. Too bad they dont want to tell the gender.. But nevermind~ sexless baby stuff is always sold~ sexless? Aha sounds funny..

I always wonder how my baby will look like.. Will the baby looks more like the father or me? I hope he/she looks a bit like vic zhou or selena gomez or demi lovato or jtt or ... ahaha.. Nah~ i just want he/she to be healthy and perfect =D

very2 looking forward to 2011.. Yipppeeee!

List

2010-11-25T13:54:00.000+08:00

I've been thinking a lot lately about my life, family, being jobless and stuff.. I think its about time to make a step forward.. So.. I've decided to make a list of things that i need to accomplish within a year. Wish me luck!

Forgotten

2010-11-24T18:34:00.001+08:00

I ever made a promise to a dearest friend of mine that i would never change.. And we will always be brother and sister..

But.. Lately, he changed somehow. No more joining the fun when i'm around. I feel like he prefers to be with the others. Maybe my present troubled him. I dont know. Maybe for him, i was the who have changed.. Only god knows why. Too much for my happy ending

Lonely

2010-11-24T12:52:00.000+08:00

I never thought being pregnant can be so lonely. I feel like a plague.. Avoided. I used to have a lot of things to do like hanging out, driving to nowhere around the village, play counter strike at friend's house and basically having fun..

Now, its only me, my lappy, my hp and my blog.. Everyone is kind of busy with work or their social life.. And some are just too busy chilling out without me.

=)

Guilt..

2010-11-24T01:05:00.001+08:00

My dad used to have breathing difficulty when he lied down so he used to sleep sitting down at one of the sofa in the living room. I always found myself sitting at the same chair late at night when i miss him so much.. And i feel guilt.

A few days before his condition started to get worse.. It was on fasting month. I went to visit him with my uncle, my 3rd sis, my lil bro and hubby. My mom has been breaking fast at the hospital since the very first day my dad was admitted.. Since my uncle and i were not fasting. I asked my sister to bring my mom to go dinner outside.. So left only my dad, my uncle and me..

Malay believes that dusk is not a very good time, full of evil spirit lurking around. But on that day, the hospital was so cold.. So i opened the window near my dad's bed as my uncle couldnt bear the cold temperature. Since that night.. My dad's condition worsened.. And the next day, he was transferred to a private room..

I blamed myself for my father's death coz in a way.. It was my fault. I told my mom what i did last month and she didnt say anything nor denying it was my fault..

Everytime i sit at the chair.. I wish i could turn back time.. I wish i didnt open the stupid window.. And i wish.. He would get better instead coz he always did before this.. And i wish my mom would tell me it wasnt my fault ='(

Al-Fatihah..

2010

2010-11-20T01:02:00.002+08:00

2010 is nearly to the end. A lot of things had happened. Things that i didnt believe will happen this soon. My dad had just passed away Just a few months back.. followed by my Uncle (mother's side). The victim.. My mom. She just lost a husband and a brother.

But people always said 'there's light at the end of a dark tunnel'. It's been years since i miscarriaged. On my birthday, 15th September... I found out i am pregnant! Alhamdullilah.. After 5 years of marriage. We just hope and pray that this time, the baby is ours to keep.

A few weeks back, my big sister was offered a baby to be adopt. The mom said it will be a boy. Due date 27.01.2011.. Agreement has been signed and i hope everything goes well. Amin.

More blessing on my husband's side.. My bro-in-law's wife is also expecting. Due in February =DD

We lost 2 lives and get 3 back. God is fair.

Im looking forward to 2011 with OPTIMISM. May our life be a bright path to a wonderful future.

My boys..

2010-03-08T21:52:00.001+08:00

I have been busy managing and coaching a football team. Yeah.. I know~ im old and im a lady aha but it didnt stop me being active.. Except my knees are hurting. I guess i look young at the surface but my age is catching up with me inside.. Being jobless is depressing and the team makes me happy.

My bro, Ben.. He is a very gd player (football that is and not in girls.. He already has a gf and i am fond of her =>). Ben's ball intelligent is good. He can play with both left and right foot. He knows how to block and tackle. The captain of the team and he is also a stubborn person aha.. Sometimes.. Its damn hard to control him.. But thats my bro! =D

Fitz, the big brother of the team, 4yrs younger but 10yrs more matured than me aha.. A very helpful lad. He's my guidance counsellor and a motivator. He's shorter than the brothers but higher in spirit, always have a gd word bout others and a gd player. Nimble and fast. Kind of missing him since he's gone to work in OZ.. ='(

Ameer, Fitz's bro, is the motor mouth.. (in a gd way) always yakkity-yak. The field is never quiet if he's around. He's also a damn gd player like fitz and ben. Ameer is always loyal to the team. Although he has his own team but he always care for us just like he's brother (eventhough he sometimes under estimate us ahaha). I always miss his lame jokes ahahaha

The next post will be about Sufri, Nafie and Mubdi =)

A long time..

2010-03-08T21:27:00.001+08:00

Im not sure how many loyal readers i still have now.. Its been quite a while and a lot of things had change.

I used to talk a lot bout irc, works, daily gossips, my friends and just about everything and nothing.

When i was younger, i always felt.. Hated.. Trapped.. Suffocated. Made friends with the wrong bunch and fall in love with a jerk. So many mistakes and yet, im still lucky.

What i want? Hmm.. I want to be there for those who are in need.. I want to be needed.. I want to care for others, helping and listening. I want to change the world and i wish i can split my body into two.. But sometimes.. Im tired, crumpled and dying inside.. I felt hopeless and useless.. =s

2009-05-04T08:30:00.002+08:00

I woke up to a sore body and burnt skin. I know some people might wonders what happened to Dexxy? Why is she not posting as often as before? Well.. Nowadays i have been busy with work, participating in an inter-departmental Basketball tournament and also coaching and managing my lil bro's soccer team, the IBL FT.

What makes me blogging now? Because today marks the first day of my lil bro working at offshore for one week. It's a funny thing about being the youngest girl and the only boy in the family.

Let me tell you a lil bit bout my brother. His name is Md. Nazirul Mubbin. At home we called him Kooch but he prefers Ben anyway.. Being the only boy, he is a spoil brat! He can be such an ass ahaha.. We used to fight a lot because he can be so damn rude. Once, we had a fist fight and my dad nearly had a heart attack and my mom went histerical. The wonderful thing about our relationships, regardless how we fight a lot and hates each other, we'll always look out for one another. We always know that whenever we are in deep shit, one of us will always be there.

He slept over at my house last night and sir sent him off to the jetty. I was in the toilet and he just called out to tell me that he's going. When i came out of the toilet, i was hoping to catch a glimpse of him before he leaves but knowing him, he probably half way to the jetty already hahaha (punctual boy!). I felt a bit sad because for the past few months, we have been hanging out together since i am the manager of his FT. Starting today until 11th, he wont be there at the field training with us. Hey.. it's only for 1 week! but it feels like a very long time~ Standing at the room he always sleep in, i felt proud to be his sister. I cant believe how much he has grown from a boy to a man. He's always trying to prove he's matured eventhough he's only 19yrs old =)

How much we fight could never overcome how much we love.. My father always tell us, 'I have only 5 children. If anything happen to me and your mom, you will only have each other..' I guess that's why my siblings have a strong bonding with each other and im proud to call myself the HN's youngest daughter ahahahaha..

Thought of the day - 1354 10/02/09

2009-02-10T13:57:00.004+08:00

It's always easy to pretend then telling the truth coz the truth might hurt the one we love.. However, lies and pretending can be more painful and it does not only hurt the one we love but also, the relationship.

Relationship without trust is not worth to live for. What is the use of being together when jealousy and egos clouded clear thinking? When all the words that you have spoken, does not ease the pain but cause it to bleed more..

Meaning Of Love

2009-02-08T17:39:00.005+08:00

If you love someone because you think that he or she is really gorgeous.. then it's not love.. its
~*Infatuation*~

If you love some one because you think that you shouldn't leave him because others thing that you shouldn't.. then it's not love.. it's
~*Compromise*~

If you love some one because you have been kissed by him.. then it's not love.. it's

~*Inferiority Complex~*

If you love some one because you cannot leave him thinking that it would hurt his feelings.. then it's not love.. it's

~*Charity*~

If you love some one because you share everything with him.. then it's not love.. it's
~*Friendship*~

But if you feel the pain of the other person more than him even when he is stable and you cry for him.. that's

~*LOVE*~

If you get attracted to other people but stay with him without any regrets.. that's

~*LOVE*~

If you let him go knowing that he has to go but he doesn't want to.. that's

~*LOVE*~

Cape No. 7

2009-02-08T17:09:00.004+08:00

I spend my Sunday evening watching a Mandarin Movie called Cape No. 7. It's a Taiwanese Romance Comedic Music Drama Film which was written and directed by Wei Te-Sheng.. It won 3 awards in Taipei Film Festival. To date, the filem has won 12 awards to date, including 6 at the 2008 Golden Horse Awards. This Hero and Heroin are Van Fan and Chie Tanaka (which only had minor acting experience) and most of the supporting roles were filled by non-actors. Regardless the inexperience actors and actresses, this fim has grossed over US$13,084,531 since its release.

This film was about 2 generations. In 1940, near the end of the Japanese occupation of Taiwan, a Japanese teacher fell in love with a local Taiwanese girl who has a Japanese name, Kojima Tomoko. They have planned to elope but the man went back without the girl. On his trip home, he pens 7 love letters to express his regret for leaving without her...

After more than 60 years, the man passed away and the daughter found the letters and decided to send it to the rightful owners. The lady has moved so the letter was returned back to the new postman (Van Fan) who is a young Hengchun-native rock band singer who failed in Taipei. At the same time, a japanese model also with the name Tomoko is assigned to manage a local band.. And the singer is Van Fan... To know more.. you have to watch it..

The film is all about long distance relationship.. Sacrifise.. Love.. I always find it funny when most Bruneians find that long distance relationship will never last but i am sure there are a lot of long distance relationship that are still together eventhough they have gone through a lot.. Bruneian's term of long distance relationship is usually from KB to BSB.. or.. Brunei and which ever country that their partner is going to for studies or work.. 2 - 4 yrs.. and it is tough for them.

Love is all about sacrifying for the one you love.. For their happiness. Love is not always full of sunshine. Love without burden and problems are not a true love at all. It's about being true to yourself and to the others, taking care of each other's feeling.. Respect for each other and just being there for the one you love..

I've got a poem from Bruneilady.. and i will post it after this..

Obladi Oblada~

2009-02-03T21:06:00.000+08:00

Weekend with Siblings (last month i think~) Ptg.. kayu Tiga.. Malam.. Charade Game

2009-02-03T19:27:00.005+08:00

Once Upon A Time @ Miri

2009-02-03T19:24:00.003+08:00

My Miri outing last year.. Met few friends =) I think this pictures were taken in October..

Just Snapping photos

2009-02-03T19:16:00.003+08:00

I have a lot of pictures to be posted. I think it has become a habit to snap photos where ever i am. Now i've got a lots. Armed with only my nokia phone as my camera, i think the pictures are okay ya.. So who ever is still waiting for their pictures to be posted, im sorry =) Your pictures WILL be posted as soon as i am free to do some blogging.

Oh.. If anybody asking me what i want for my birthday this year, I want a camera.. A REAL photographer camera.. hehe.. I dont know what model yet but hey, i dont fuss.

The day Reamy blanja mamam di Mall

2009-01-17T22:21:00.002+08:00

'Uguy'

2009-01-06T23:03:00.000+08:00

Miri

2009-01-06T21:53:00.001+08:00

Memories..

2009-01-06T21:18:00.002+08:00

Salleh's 'B' Day

2009-01-06T21:15:00.001+08:00

Farewell memories @ Kate's.. Thank you kawan2 =p

2009-01-04T12:52:00.004+08:00

As promise.. Courtesy of MeiMei's Digital Camera =)

2009-01-04T12:38:00.005+08:00

Tagged from iwee/Giok

2009-01-03T12:18:00.007+08:00

1. Do you think you're hot?
Nope.. I dont think so.. but in a way.. maybe ehe thats wat i was told =x

2. Upload a favourite picture of you.

3. Why do you like that picture?
Because it only shows part of my face.. i dont really like the look of myself. Im not photogenic

4. When was the last time you ate pizze?
During my farewell, i think... erm.. last month. But i am not a pizza lover

5. The last song you listened to
You're all i need - Faizal

6. What are you doing now beside this?
Chatting with oinx, smoking, listening to the neighbouring kids playing outside and relaxing myself from feeling depressed.

7. What name do you prefer beside yours?
Meah =p~ Dex or Bum or Be3

8. Tag 5 people
Lydia
HMAStar
Adeq
Weedah
Leela

9. Who is number 1?
A blogger friend.. i love her blog =)

10. Number 2 is having a relationship with who?
No idea.. He used to be my student and now he's my blogger friend =)

11. Say something about number 5.
ehe.. related by marriage. One of the family members of the JAPAI's clan..

12. How ab0ut number 4?
Adik c Leela~

13. Who is number 3?
My tomboyish niece.. i always tot she is a bisex.. anyway, she is a sarcastic and bright gal. Proud to be her auntie =)

2009-01-03T11:31:00.003+08:00

This last few days, i was feeling down, sad and depressed. I still do now... I think negative everyday and it began to scare me. I've been there before and tried to commit suicide nearly 3 times.

Everytime i am asking for help.. nobody really pay attention. Where are my so-called friends who i give my life to? Where are those people who said that they care for me but they could never understand me?

Today, somebody challenged me into commit suicide. I am thinking of 1001 ways to do it. Should i cut my wrist? Should i crash the car? Should i die of overdose? I thought the person cares for me.. but..

There is no words to describe my sorrow and unhappiness. Is my life just to sacrifice myself for other people's happiness? Is my life so unimportant that i should end it? Is there somebody out there who really cares for me?

I was so desperate for help that i've tried to call my own enemy for a talk. People always thought i'm a cheerful person and very strong. Deep inside, i am just a bitter, sad, unhappy lady.

As a muslim, i know suicide is a sin. I know i need HELP... but where can i get one? I even feel scared to tell my parents because they have been unwell for quite sometimes.

I just want somebody to help me.. because i dont know what i want.. i dont know why am i here for.. i dont know what i should do..

Wawawa kana lanja~

2008-12-19T21:05:00.001+08:00

Yea2.. Lapar2.. Tgh tunggu kebab. Apple lanja.. Apakah m0odnya lanja? Ahaha anyway tq~

ahaha.. Batah2

2008-12-07T17:29:00.003+08:00

Sorry people.. i've been gone for quite sometimes. I have an absolutely good reason for this yaaa.. Im moving on to the next phase of my life. Meeting new people, in a new job, in a new place... Went for a vacation. And now i'm back.. So the first thing i did was.. membalas tagged c GIOK.. which i dont know yg mana satu. I just chose one ahaha.. Kan change background lagiiiii..

Thank you so much for all the readers and bloggers yang rajin sgt2 checking out my site. I really appreciate your supports!

ST12 - Saat Terakhir

2008-12-07T16:50:00.003+08:00

Tagged by GioK- (i think this is the one~)

RULES:
1. Put Your itunes, windows media player etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name
5. Tag 6 people.

Are you male or female?
Paramore - Never let you go (Yeah.. im a female just like the singer)

Describe yourself!
Paramore - Misery Business (ahahaha.. It tells about me a lot huh)

What do people feel when they're around you
Secondhand Serenade - Your Call (People missed me coz im terrifying)

Describe your current relationship.
The Ting Tings - That's not my name (Yup.. I dont know what you're asking on)

Where would you like to be now?
The Ting Tings - Great DJ (True!! Partayyyyy~!!)

How do you feel about love?
Jay Chou - Ting Mama De Hua (In this case.. i follow the song.. follow what your mom says)

What's your life like?
Suki feat. Ahli Fiqir - Usah (Kau sering sendirian tanpa ku~)

What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
Mus & Victor - Hatiku kekal padamu (True.. One thing i'm a bit lack of ahaha)

Say something wise.
F4 - Jue Bu De Neng Shi Qu Ni remix (aha.. yea yea true.. cari sendiri apa maknanya)

If someone says "is this okay?" you say,
The Pogues - Love you til the end (sedih cetanyaaaaa.. Nyaman nanez..)

How would you describe yourself?
Rihanna - Take A Bow (Seksi babe.. Talented!)

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Pussycat Dolls - When I Grow Up (Agad tarian drgggg~!!)

How do you feel today?
Ni Yau De Ai guy version (Prefer gal version though~ Your love...)

What is your life's purpose?
Im Yours - Gal Version (I'm always taken =>)

What is your motto?
Vanilla Sky - A Thousand Miles (I need youuu and i miss youuuu~!!)

What do your friends think of you?
Vitamin C- Smile (Lagu lama but lawaaaa)

What do you think of your parents?
Ella Feat Shah - Ku Merindu (Rindu joa laaa)

What do you think about very often?
Simple Plan - Your Love Is A Lie (I like the lyrix)

What is 2 + 2?
D'Masiv - Cinta Ini Membunuhku (Erm..)

What do you think of your best friend?
Hoku - Perfect Day (Lawa ni lagu legally blonde!)

What do you think of the person you like?
Jay Chou - Ye Qu (Banyak lagu cina panya aku ni)

What is your life story?
F4 - Can't Help Falling In Love (WARGAHAHAHAHAHAHA~!!!!!!!!)

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Lily Allen - Smile (Bagus lagu ani.. Very strongggg)

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Vitamin C - Graduation Song (Kami ada pasang lagu ni masa graduate.. sediiihhhh uhuu)

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Vitamin C - I Know What Boys Like (ahahaha.. sandi tu time kawen lagu ani kana pasang.. Ketara player)

What will they play at your funeral?
S.O.A.P - This Is How We Party (Haha Party Babe if mati mesti pasang lagu party joa)

What is your hobby/interest?
Yuni Shara - Sepi (Lawa ni dari filem Sepi.. Menyepi joa la hobby ku)

What is your biggest fear?
Zaf & Lah V.E. - Aku Bukan Untukmu (Uhuuu.. banar tu..)

What is your biggest secret?
Nurun Nuwwarah - Bila Kasih Menyepi (Dari filem Sepi)

What do you think of your friends?
The Lima - Kau Ada Dia (ehe.. Sepiii lagiii..)

What will you post this as?
ST12 - Saat Terakhir (Lagu utk Mulah Hatta =>)

Goodbye to Shafiee Hassan & Maskufah

2008-11-12T19:37:00.003+08:00

Wish you all the best in everything you do
May what you wish for comes true
Coz it has been long overdue
Now it's time get out of the blue

Farewell to Maskufah and Shafiee

You will all be miss, really~

(Bila joa inda~ aha)

Dedicated to Mohd Hatta HMA

2008-11-11T17:54:00.004+08:00

To respect the request from HMA's family.. I have uploaded this ST12's song - Saat Terakhir.. It will be the first song that you will hear once you visit this blog =) I have also include the lyric and guitar code.

[intro] D A Bm F#m G D A

D A
Tak pernah terpikir olehku
Bm F#m
Tak sedikitpun ku bayangkan
G D A
Kau akan pergi tinggalkan kusendiri

D A
Begitu sulit kubayangkan
Bm F#m
Begitu sakit ku rasakan
G D A
Kau akan pergi tinggalkan ku sendiri

G
Di bawah batu nisan kini
A
Kau tlah sandarkan
D A/C# Bm
Kasih sayang kamu begitu dalam
G
sungguh ku tak sanggup
A D
Ini terjadi krna ku sangat cinta

[chorus]
G A
Inilah saat terakhirku melihat kamu
D A/C# Bm
Jatuh air mataku menangis pilu
G E
Hanya mampu ucapkan
A
Selamat jalan kasih

D A/C#
Satu jam saja kutelah bisa
Bm G
cintai kamu kamu kamu di hatiku
D A
Namun bagiku melupaknmu
G A
buth waktuku seumur hidup

D A/C#
Satu jam saja kutelah bisa
Bm G
sayangi kamu di hatiku
D A
Namun bagiku melupaknmu
G A
butuh waktuku seumur hidup

[interlude] G Bm Em F# Bm A-G Em A

Raya Gathering & Farewell

2008-11-06T06:35:00.005+08:00

David~ with Adeq and Din

Sifu and Student

Salute to EPOO geng... =)

eleh.. head banging la toh =)

Trip to Mulah Hatta's crib

2008-11-06T00:14:00.007+08:00

On Thursday, 30.10.2008.. We went to Mulah Hatta's house to visit his family. I have the honour of meeting his wife, son and mother. Thank you for having us at the last minute. Kak Saibah took the opportunity to tell us the real story that happened on the night of Hatta's death.

For those people, who have heard some abnormal stories about Hatta's death.. Please do not believe those stories because it is all a hoax. I do not want to repeat the story that Kak Saibah has told us because afraid that i could not write it down correctly. Anyway, i would like to quote what Kak Saibah has said, 'Hatta is a simple man and he died in a simple way.' She is right and the way she said it, made me speechless and sad. She is a woman full of strong will.. Respect la..

We took several pictures but sorry, none of the family house or the family because to ensure their privacy is well taken care off. We just took several scenery pictures though...

Mancing siuk tu..

Air pasang

Sungai yang Hatta cakap berboya

Orang2 yg ikut my car =)

Pix ani dipanggil Lembu c Jojo ehe

i'm back~

2008-11-05T23:51:00.003+08:00

Somebody kept on checking my blog for new post. Im so sorry for missing in action. I have tons of pix to upload so im gonna take my sweet time to upload it all.. Bear with me.. Ahax..

I'll start with my open house pix on 24.10.2008. Some of it k.. Will upload some more once i have all the other pix from my niece's camera..

Thanks to the DHL geng coz sudi datang membawa cewek2 drg.. except yg duduk di dpn atu la hehehe

Biasa... kidnap anak org lagi.. Namany April..

Celop & Angel

Behind the scene ladies.. Tanpa anda, majlis nda kan berjaya hehehe

Majlis tahlil @ Lubok Meranti

2008-10-30T06:15:00.004+08:00

Dear friends,

On behalf of the HMA family, you are cordially invited to Md. Hatta's tahlil ceremony.

Date: 2nd November 2008
Venue: No. 7, Spg 265, Jln Lubok Meranti, Tanjong Maya, Tutong
Time: After the Asar prayer

A comment from Anonymous

2008-10-29T19:22:00.001+08:00

Hatta is a good person & LA.. He motivate & help us alotzz.. Thanks Hatta.. U r remembered.

Tahlil @ Room 22

2008-10-29T16:10:00.005+08:00

Alhamdullilah.. Majlis Tahlil untuk Mulah Md. Hatta telah berjalan dengan lancar. Bacaan tahlil telah dipimpin oleh teman seopis beliau sendiri iaitu Hj Azman. Seramai 50 orang telah hadir yang terdiri daripada teman-teman seperjuangan, trainees, sahabat2 beliau dan juga dua orang adik-beradik beliau.

I have took several pictures as requested by Hj Azman.

Brothers of the late Md. Hatta and Hj Azman

Jim Carthy, the department head, giving an opening speech

Jim has created a list of his impression of Hatta..

Jim: (if i can re-quote what he has said) First time he met Hatta, eventhough knowing Hatta in a short time, he could feel how deep the friendship and how influence he was. Hatta was like a brother and a good friend in welcoming him to the department, very easy to talk to. There was a toughness in him, strict in the matter of following the safety rules at the office. Demanding in a good way. Md Hatta had always been respectful and never talk bad about others. A profound contribution as a team player. A changed to extremely calming influence whenever he walked in to a room.

H - Humble chap

A - Appreciative

T - Team Player

T - Tough in a gentle way

A - cAlming

Last picture in Temburong

2008-10-28T19:59:00.003+08:00

Uncle Joe has sent us the picture of Hatta in Temburong which he had requested to be printed out as posters. He was supposed to collect it on Monday. Sadly, he didn't have the chance...

I know that most of the colleagues have to go to Temburong again for work. It had always been Hatta's work whenever Temburong is concerned. Hj Mahmud and Joslyn are a bit reluctant to go.. 'Too much memories' 'Hatta is the right leg and i am the left, without him.. I am no use'

What i can say is.. Guys (and Ladies), whatever it takes, we need to go on. Please make this event a success and dedicate all the hard work to Md. Hatta. Without him, the past events wont be a success.. and without you, he could not make it better too.. He had shared his knowledge because he knew that one day, he would not be there. I am sure this is what he wants, for us to go on.. and for us to be a TEAM and a HUB.. (Hatta always emphasise the word TEAMWORK ehe)

I have the difficulty in posting all these because i always end up crying. I am not that close with him, not like most of you who have worked with him over the years. In my nearly 3-yr in the department, he is one of the good 'Big Bros' who always giving me words of wisdom. I always respected him and put him as my idol because he was never afraid in speaking out his mind. He always believed in Freedom of Speech.

So friends... Let Hatta be our motivation and make the event a success...

P/S: Room 24, Wednesday (29th October 2008) Majlis Bertahlil @ 1530.

Words from Leslie Bin William (OTTS-8)

2008-10-28T19:41:00.002+08:00

I have received a forward email from Haji Azman (partner in crime of Md. Hatta =) ehe). He have received a very touching email from one of Hatta's trainee...

Leslie:

Dear Friends and Colleagues....

I would just want to say how sad and depressed i am upon hearing on the passing of our very own Learning Advisor Mohammad Hatta. May God bless him and may his soul rest in peace... He will truly be missed by all of the trainees of OTTS trainees from before and now. He had brought us laughter and joy ever since we started training at the centre. He was always there for us when we were totally clueless about what we were going to do when we were attached to our different perspective assets. No matter how hard or how clueless we were, he would always motivate us to be more independent in our working life. Sad to hear on the 1st day of my working shift, i have sadly known that he had passed away when i was not around. If only i could see him one last time to say thank you for all his teaching and all the knowledge he shared to us.

My condolences to his family for they have truly lost someone so special. During the signing of our contract next year, when we graduate, eventhough he is not with us during that time and during our graduation photo, i know that deep down in my heart, i know that he will be there and always be beside us and supporting us in every way. We will truly miss you, all the memories we have with you, will always be kept in our hearts forever.

Thank you Mohammad Hatta for teaching OTTS-8 on how to be a successful engineer..

"You will always be a memory that we will never forget" =_(

In Memory

2008-10-28T08:19:00.005+08:00

Mohd. Hatta Bin Haji Minor Absah

16/11/1965 - 25/10/2008

'Precious Loss'

Soft spoken and cheerful

Friendly and Helpful

Kind and Wonderful

That was you in full

Everyday and night, you are in our thoughts

I know everyone is missing you a lot

You have touched everybody hearts

You were always cool even when it was hard

You have changed people's life

Eventhough they didn't treat you right

You have taught me to stay strong

You said life is supposed to be full of right and wrong

Sadly you couldnt be here with us for that long

Coz God loves you more and he took you along

Whatever and whenever, i will always remember

Your advices and kind words to me, sir

You are a precious loss to your family and friends

You were like an angel that was sent

We will always remember you as long as we can

Because for us, you were the MAN!!

=') We all miss your jokes and stories Hatta

Thank you to Hatta's wife and family for letting me post another one. I have decided to type down this poem eventhough i know that my earlier post describe him better.

I still remembered the day i took the picture as if it was yesterday. I just took a pix of Ben and he was already posing with his choco ball =) He waited patiently for me to adjust the camera like he knew it was his last picture. His last story was about the crocodile =) Buaya joa la...

I am honoured to know him and few of his family members (I would love to meet the wife and son).

To extend his wife's wish, for those who knew Hatta, please forgive him for any wrong doings with him realising it or not.

'To err is human, to forgive divine'

Al-Fatihah

Apology to all

2008-10-27T22:15:00.002+08:00

I have received 1 call asking me to correct certain information on my recent post and 1 msg to delete it.

If anybody visiting my blog to drop a few kind words, please forgive me. Comment and all posts have been deleted to respect the orders that are given.

I am not trying to disrespect anybody or the family. I just would like to show how he had touch many people hearts with his kindness and wisdom.

If the recent post has caused feelings of anger, sadness or other emotional turmoil, pls forgive me.

For my own personal opinion, why can a memorial for famous or notorious people can be shown while the true hero, a true friend remain unknown..

People might say i am being not sensitive but i just know one thing, my intention or nawaitu is good..

Day at Pasar Gadong 23.10.08

2008-10-23T21:05:00.002+08:00

Cemani usul kambing seekor kana salai.. Mcm alien

2008-10-23T20:59:00.001+08:00

Saja~

2008-10-23T20:53:00.003+08:00

Ben and his cool specs

Wee.. look so cute in his Ugama uniform

BOomZ and Wee's songkok ahaha

Rainbow on my way to work~

2008-10-23T20:50:00.002+08:00

Mini 0pen 0ffice 20.10

2008-10-23T20:16:00.005+08:00

Food of the day
Hatta and erm.. choco ball?

Ben 'terrorizing' the water cooler

Ana counting the price of Ezan's food

Raya Celebrati0n @ Atrium (20.10)

2008-10-23T20:12:00.002+08:00

Pieee~ to be x-colleague soon (Daniel's dad)

0pen h0use @ kak Hashimah Sidek & Bro Ash (17.10.08)

2008-10-23T19:51:00.004+08:00

Kak Shimah & Me~

I love her decor~

Apple & i

A hanging vase.. Practical for a small house

Angel and her angelic smile

TEDDDYYYYY~!!!

Creative mind

2008-10-14T16:45:00.002+08:00

I was so bored today and was very busy. So.. I've decided to make my life easier by creating a mobiled phone book ehehe.. Actually i had make one which i sticked it at the wall. The %&$*& thing just wont stick so now i have a new one.. lawakannn~ Oh.. the keychain is from Uncle Juri. A souveniour from Sabah =)

This is a pix of a cigarette tip that Angel found it funny. Locah betul budak itu.

Mohd Helmi @ Boi (Part 2)

2008-10-13T21:35:00.002+08:00

Actually Ben want to post first but i've been waiting and he has not posted anything on Boi ahaha.. Sorry Ben.. Just want to keep my reader up-to-date..

The other day, somebody was asking me how was Boii so i finally got the chance to ask Ben. Ben informed me that he was discharged from the hospital a few days before Raya.. Alhamdullilah. He is still in the wheelchair but he can wriggles his feet already. Let's hope for the best and may he recover in a full speed =)

Thank you to all the readers who has prayed for Boii's recovery. Thank you for giving us a lil bit of your time to read my post about him and together giving him a good prayer regardless differences in races, ethnics and religion.

If one day, Ben is kind enuff to let Boii read this blog. I might be able to get some speech from Boii ahaha.. Thanks Ben for the info...

For BOomZ14

2008-10-13T21:19:00.003+08:00

I was too blind to see you in front of me
I was too deaf to hear you calling me
I was too numb to feel you touching me
And there you are, loving me as much as you can be

All i wanna say is thank you
For not judging me like they do
For always supporting me even when you dont want to
For loving me more than i do
For cheering me up when i was blue

I know my poem may not be perfect
or as beautiful as the moon reflects

Mind's wandering, squirming in my seat
Struggling to find the right rhyme
I guess i can end it up with
i love you til the end of time

Dedicated to BOomZ14

What i can remember..

2008-10-13T20:57:00.002+08:00

It was very hectic today at work. So many things to do and i had to cover for New Mama. Seems like my office number is popular nowadays maybe because it has the number 007 so they thought i know everything. Sometimes i felt like a receptionist or an information hotline, someday.. i am just a plain events organiser.

Kepoh lady strikes again and she was trying to dragged me into this budget thingie problem and i've just shot it to her that i am not interested and never will. I wonder when she will stop her bad habits of spreading and exaggerating rumours.. but i guess some people will never learn. Doesn't she knows that life will not be good when you are cursed everyday? aha.. and there she was talking about religious thing when obviously she forgot to teach herself in that matter..

I am trying very hard to keep up with everything, you know, stuff like work, scout, social life, blogging.. sometimes it just too much. I am still learning how to balance things out coz being ME, somebody who likes to think too much.. I just dont know how to balance things out.. so if anybody know how.. PuHhHHhLllLlllEAaAASEeee tell me..

Im still waiting for the interview result and havent heard anything solid except rumours that i'm going to get it.. Let's hope for the best. Actually, part of me feel that i dont want to leave coz it's quite fun nowadays at work although it is full of stress and dateline but i just love doing what i am doing. People said that it is better to do thing that you love to do then doing things that you dont like. I guess i need that transfer to improve my working condition. One thing, the new job is permanent and better pay.

I was chatting with Spy and we were talking about these studies thingie. I've decided to stay working and taking night classes. Since i love IT so much, i want to take IT lessons (still searching.. if anybody knows where in KB, please inform me). I'm jealous of other blogs' beautiful pixs and they told me to use photoshop bla bla.. which i have no idea how to use it... So.. I want to take up photoshop class and since i have basic front page.. I wanna learn web designing. Well.. I am not ashamed in admiting i dont know anything but i am willing to learn =)

Will was sleeping at the office and Ben was too late to inform me so i didnt managed to take a picture hehehe.. Will, you probably reading this part.. Forgive me for being cheeky *ahax*

Luckily meeting was cancelled tonight and postponed to Wednesday nyte. I felt a bit sleepy today. i didnt even go to Nano's house for the spaghetti and satay thingie. Just too tired la sis.. Furthermore, BOomz is practically across the continent by now with his Jet Pejuang snore ahaha..

If you guy noticed, i've uploaded few soundtrack from Sepi for my blog.. I just love that movie.. I wanna buy the sound track eee...

Met two new friends from FS who are hentai freak. Well guys, welcome to my world. Nanti we exchange2 k..

Maybe i'll write some poem.. Maybe..

09 - 10 / 10 / 2008

2008-10-10T12:57:00.003+08:00

Last nyte i was supposed to go Hari Raya to a few friends' house but Qaqa Masy invited us last2 minute to come over for my niece's B'day...

Sorry Nazrul.. Missed your house again but do come ya for my open house.

Anyway, i've just came back from the KB Hospital. Tua sakit and he was blabbering about death. Nanez2 ku di keta.. Nasib nda apa2.. Kencing manis nya naik.. yatah nahhhhh~ curi2 gi minum air oren ehehe.. But Alhamdullilah. Semoga Tua lekas sihat. Pada siapa2 yg kan melawat, ya di wad 10 k...

Bah bekeraja ku lu.. masuk statistic krg nama i.. Ciao..

P/S: Jan marah iwee.. pix mu bida hahaha

pix 0f kpg ayer trip fr0m apple's hp

2008-10-10T07:41:00.002+08:00

Besinar kan gigi ku~
A face of terror behind happiness
Terror face of iwee.. hehehe.. takut naik bot

k0nt0t, my gauk cat

2008-10-10T07:36:00.002+08:00

Aksi Seksi khas buat Neno

How cute can i be?
Nantox Ee~
Chuppp Baaa~

Happy 14th Birthday Baby Uha~ 09.10.08 (Masy's House)

2008-10-10T00:08:00.006+08:00

D' Cake

D' Bday Gal.. Nur Amera Nazuha

D' Mom

D' Dad

D' Potong kek session

D' Auntie & Sis

D' Grandpapa & Sis

D' Bday Gal & Auntie

D' emo sasat sis

D' Menace and the menacing

D' Toothless pirate

A L0ose M0od

2008-10-08T00:19:00.004+08:00

I ran out of ideas on what to do today. I have finished updating my blog, i have downloaded all the new games from Reflexive, played few of them (and save the rest for other days' boredom) and now, i found myself surfing the internet for tips on home interior design. How bored can i be..

I was in IRC and luckily, i was there cause Freaky was online from Indonesia. Gosh! How i missed him, my lil brother. He was telling me about this Japanese chix on his plane and i got confused haha, He was telling me like this:

Knightsfreak17 : tym dkpal ada dis chick ah

Knightsfreak17 : u know wat...upa ny bini2 atu japanes ah..

and i was like.. D kapal?

and he went.. awu..kapal as in aroplan (which i thought kapal AS)

haha.. and there he was talking about aeroplane and i thought he was talking about ship. Language barrier between a KBian and BSBian.. ahaha

We didn't chat that long because the battery of his hp was low but he asked me to send his regards to everybody who knows him so here goes,

EH KAMU2... FREAKY KIM SLM AHHHH.. =)

I was thinking of continuing my studies again but i have the feelings that somebody in my family will not be very supportive and some might criticise me. Karl was telling me that the statistics of unemployment in three years time will likely be very high. I guess it is quite true as now, Brunei has a bit of difficulty in providing jobs to the graduates. How i wished i stayed in college. I know i can do better than this. One day, i will be the one in front of the session.. I will be a lecturer. hahaha.. Jauh angan2 ku. Well, it doesnt hurt to dream right?

I was checking Ms. Imelda's website these last few days and all about the scholarship bla bla things. It is a really good website so anybody from KayBee and studying in 6th forms, just click on the link at the sidebar okay. She can give you few advices on what to do (How lucky kids nowadays!)

I am so down tonight, i guess i better get some sleep because tomorrow is the first day of my week as i was onleave on Monday and Tuesday. Bro Akeem told me that they were moving my cabinet earlier today hmm.. I hope my interview for a new job in a new company will be fruitful. I am really demotivated nowadays.

Oh.. I am watching this AF Raya thingie.. Fitri and Kaer are singing at the moment. My personal opinion, Kaer looks like Freaky and Fitri looks like aFie hahaha.. Maybe i'll write some poem later. When my mood is down, my creativity geniuses will soar up high haha

Hey, Leo and sL55 are in IRC so ciao~

Take a Bow - Rihanna

2008-10-07T13:18:00.002+08:00

Ohh, how about a round of applause

Yeah, standing ovation

Oooh ohh yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah

You look so dumb right now

Standing outside my house

Trying to apologize

You're so ugly when you cry

Please, just cut it out

An' don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not

Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show

Really had me going

But now it's time to go

Curtain's finally closing

That was quite a show

Very entertaining

But it's over now (but it's over now)

Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone)Y

ou better hurry up before the sprinklers come on (come on)

Talkin' about, girl, I love you, you're the one

This just looks like a re-run

Please, what else is on (ohh)

And don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not

Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show

Really had me goingB

ut now it's time to go

Curtain's finally closing

That was quite a show

Very entertaining

But it's over now (but it's over now)

Go on and take a bow

Ohh, and the award for best liar goes to you

For making me believe that you could be faithful to me

Let's hear your speech out

How about a round of applause

A standing ovation

But you put on quite a show

Really had me going

Now it's time to go

Curtain's finally closing

That was quite a show

Very entertaining

But it's over now (but it's over now)

Go on and take a bow

But it's over now

Happy Anniversary to Wanee & Irdi 06.10.08

2008-10-06T22:48:00.002+08:00

Happy Wedding Anniversaryyyy ehhh salah... Happy 4 yrs Anniversary mengharungi liku2 kehidupan and terpaksa stick to one hahahaha... Congrates cuz Nox coz berjaya nda curang selama 4 tahun hahaha pacah rekod dah tu

Get Well Soon sL55

2008-10-06T22:36:00.001+08:00

Get well musuh ketat ku.. Ada tu jandamu mendangani hehehe... nyeh nyeh nyeh~

Today 06.10.2008

2008-10-06T22:29:00.002+08:00

I masih cuti~ yea yea~ tapi lusa kaja hm.. I update my blog and usai2 apa yang patut. No raya2 theme lagi.. tukar coz kalau lambat tukar jadi malas krg..

Anyway, planning kan braya tadi tapi ada org atu kan.. tido tah ya plang. Atas nasihat celop, kuruh nya abis i rakam =) jaat eee celop ahhh~

Mcm2 happened today.. Tyg putus.. Av confessed something, Lop kesesakkan..

Apa2pun.. Alhamdullilah dpt berita dari sL55 yang sakitnya nda teruk (Something about usus begumpal kah). He will be admitted on 16th di Ward 6 and operate on th 18th. Ehehe.. We will be there to 'teburaikan' gumpalan atu hehehe

Correction

2008-10-06T18:45:00.004+08:00

Correction for the name of the beautiful lady in the pix of D0ublet0p's house, Not SERI but SARI. SIS SARI.. Sorry ye suaminyaaa... ahaha..

And, i forgot to mentioned, qaqa c Reamy yg the eldest tu HOT ehhh.. SEXY gi.. Mcm org alum kawen and beranak.. Apakah rahsia anda? hehe

Quiz.. Siapakah ini?

2008-10-06T18:45:00.001+08:00

Kpg Ayer ehehe... w\ ketakutan naik bot (Everything in the video)

2008-10-06T18:31:00.007+08:00

The trip was FUN!! We had a blast on the speed bot bUuUuuuuutttt we were practically wet! Luckily, penambang pertama toh encem ahhaha.. sampat gi toh. Sorry by~ Ada rambut org tunggang tebalik.. nasib bukan rambut palsu.

Otw balik yg parah.. antak2 ani wah.. sakit2.. teturun peranakkan gue.. ahaha

4th day raya.. 05.10.08 (BumZ Braya)

2008-10-06T17:46:00.004+08:00

We went to Babu Hjh Naimah's house at Kota Batu. Sakai semua hehe.. Then we went to Kudil (Lambak Kiri), Qaqa Biah (Madang), Eqah (Lambak Kanan), Angah Mulok (Manggis), Avyy (kpg Ayer) and D0ublet0p (Lambak Kanan)

3rd day of raya.. 04.10.08

2008-10-06T16:07:00.003+08:00

Went to BSB. Rumah Kak Suma (open house), Rumah Abg Roslan (Banyak ikan buntal gantung2 which i found it disgusting so i didnt take any pix), Rumah Kilanas (open house), Rumah Ben (open house), Rumah Uncle Zaini (Open House) and Rumah Spyking (open house). The last house, i barely can swallow my food so damn full! but .. Alhamdullilah...

4 cars, 4 walkie talkie.. We played few quizzes on the way hehe.. Sapa dpt sambung pantun my mom, Baling Katak Baling Karong.. Sambung tia nahhhh... Which all of us lose to my mom by $1.

The sisters

Baby & i

The cute lil boy that looks like a chinese (Dennis, not my dennis the menace).

Cuteeeee

My Dennis The Menace

Angel & Baby (Show off sama kain)

Masy ambik pix org pun senget2 hehe.. tangan gi jauh ke dapan takut shaking

Along Wee mo jua kan duduk2 pesok2 babahnya

Along Wee.. sesi pasrah and menyamal ehehe

I found her so cuteeee (anak buah c Spy)

2nd day of raya.. 03.10.2008

2008-10-06T15:45:00.002+08:00

Went 'raya-ing' kawasan KB.. Went to a big house erm.. i think the name of the owner is Hj Damit, who if i am not mistaken, pangkat nenek saudara hmm.. then we went to Kak Leha's house which was fully smelled like cats because they are selling this long fur and siamese cats. I am a bit allergic to cats with long fur..

Went to Seria but then we got back to Lumut coz Abg Pandey from Miri came by. His son wow.. so active so small but then ganas eheh.. Dennis the Menace pun kalah.

Sadly, i didnt take any pix.

1st day of raya.. 02.10.08

2008-10-06T15:17:00.006+08:00

Di keheningan pagi, sayup2 kedengaran suara IBU membebel memecahkan kedamaian pagi ehehehe... As usual jua, i was still on top of my bed, snuggling comfortably. Mom can be such a spoiler (joking).

Selepas bersalam2an, we went to KB. 1st house is umah Nenek then, Angah Bagong (betahlil), Umah bapak, Abg Jas, Uda dapatz (C-dapatz blog) and Bungsu Piee.. (kiyot cucunya).

I took few pix hehe..

hehe..

Menu di umah Angah Bagong

Gundoy, BOomz, Adi & Me..

Sir & i

The Geng

Perhiasan di umah Kak Dk.. I love her house! So simple but comfortable and pretty. A nice concept of wood and bricks. They just renovated their house.. hmm.. maybe she can help me out when i moved out from my current house hehe..

Another pix of us

Open House session di rumah Hj Bujang =) Nyumz!

The night of raya

2008-10-06T11:23:00.006+08:00

hehe.. Actually today is the 5th day of Raya but i havent got the chance to upload anything sOoOoOooo.. here goes..

The night of raya as usual, PERANG BADIL hehehe I didnt took any pix but i did managed to get some videos. I was hoping to get the video of BOomZ14 and Apple doing their daredevil stuff but it was raining heavily and too dark *hint2*

It was a bit erm.. how to say.. interesting? As it was raining heavily but the sky of KB was filled with fireworks. BOomZ said that 'au.. kalah cina sekali org melayu men badil. Nda gi ingaukan hujan' ahaha.. Dah tu.. Cabul gi ya cakap pasal perang. You guys can listen to his conversation about war in the flares movie.. Enjoy

Perang Badil

Flares

Es0k raya! 2nd 0ct 2008

2008-10-01T07:06:00.004+08:00

Alamax! Malaysia raya today.. That's mean banyak cerita siuk2 d tv. Uhu.. Tapi kami kaja ee.. Ini tidak adil! Ahaha..

Malang nasib i.. Udah j0a kaja, kalah betaruh gi ngan l0p. Nasib pertaruhan yg clean =p~ NOT!

Im just w0ndering apa yg c ev mau in a 13-yr 0ld gal.. Nda takut kana sebatkah? Ahaha

Terlampau pandai parking

2008-10-01T07:04:00.003+08:00

haha.. Gilax. Parking siring p0n temasuk abis. Nasib l0ngkang betutup.

Angel's 0ffice m0ve 30.09.08

2008-10-01T06:55:00.006+08:00

G-wahim suruh kami balik awal around 12 dari office coz sesi melihat anak bulan malam 30.09.2008. I got a bet with Lop. Tapi leh sebab i post this tOo late, i know i lose hahaha.. Nda pa.. Janji ya dulu kalah.

Tolong2 qaqa packing her stuff di HQ. Betambah gi ada drg Bro Sabri and Bro Zul. Meriah sesi hehehe.. How i biasa ngan drg? Simple.. Selalu2 la serang office your sista then buat lawak antarabangsa hahaha.. ^_^

Air apa ni nah hehehe... Chrisanthemum Tea laaa... Ada org nda posa..

PC kaja Qaqa Angel yang kan di masukkan dlm kotak A4

Cute tah tu konon

Marlisa (xku punya x.. ahahaha), Angel, Contract Manager (Bro Sabri) and Boss Qaqa (Bro Zul)

Buang tabiat di office qaqa

Aiya.. pala manyak pening ahh zulll

Congratulations Sis Av and Bro Azm ku tyggg~!! 29.08.08

2008-09-29T22:44:00.004+08:00

I have no idea what i would be told sampai tah msg pix ni kana antar ke hp ku. Chuppy2 ni manusia dua org ani.. HUTANG kamu dua ahhh... Kan daku kenang sampai bila2 ahahaha.. Apa2 pun.. i love both of you so much2.

Congratulations once again. May you find all the happiness in marriage life.

Sis Av.. adang2 nyamal! Bro Azm.. Jan kan mawah2 hahahaha

A friend in need.. A friend indeed..

2008-09-29T21:38:00.003+08:00

Boii is a friend of Ben. I ever met him once when we hang out at Aladdin's in JP. A very funny and friendly guy. I still remembered his happy smile..

Boii has been admitted at RIPAS after going on operation about 2 weeks ago. He suffered from a spinal cord tumour and it was affecting his nerves brain. He is now trying to move his legs and hopefully the blood will flow normally to his legs so that he can walk as usual. Anything that is connected with Spinal cord or the backbone is very dangerous.

So friends and readers, please help us pray for Boii.. Raya is already around the corner. He is too young to be spending his life on a bed. He has too much things to do in his life for himself and his family. He deserves a better life.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhan Kami, Engkau lah yang maha pengasih dan maha penyayang. Sesungguhnya setiap kejadian ada hikmahnya. Kami mohon padamu ya Allah, kuatkan lah semangat kawan kami, Mohd Helmi Bin Hj Sabtu, menempuh dugaan yang Kau berikan. Sembuhkan lah sakitnya, ya Allah.. Sesungguhnya yg buruk itu datang daripada kami, hamba Mu yang lemah dan yang baik itu datangnya daripada Mu, ya Allah.. Amin ya raabal alamin..

Missing ..

2008-09-28T12:06:00.009+08:00

Baru masuk blog, dgr takbir.. Becucul lagi. Suddenly, i feel that i am missing my Grandma, Mulah Nenek Damit so very much. I remembered when i was younger, aku paling nda suka besalam di pagi raya coz there were too much drama and too much tears. I always thought that Raya is supposed to be the happiest moment at that time and i dont understand why they cried.

The year 1992, for the first time aku ikut besalam di pagi raya. That was the first and the last aku besalam with my nenek because later that year, she passed away peacefully on a Friday afternoon.. infront of me. I still remember holding her hands and ya pesan 'Belajar rajin2. Jan gauk2.. Jaga indung baik2'.. And then she said that she wanted to take a nap. She was just closing her eyes when Qaqa Angel asked me to wake her up. Kan suruh ya minum coz ya bakas makan rojak (yg malar kan di makannya.. Alhamdullilah sampat) I tried to wake her up but she was gone..

I dreamt about her.. Kami sembahyang berjemaah. When i saw her, i asked her why did she have to go and where? She said that she had no choice and she couldnt take me. Aku nangis and paksa ya bawa aku. She finally gave in and promised to take me with her lapas kami sembahyang. But she never did.. She was gone in my dreams.

I am thankful that i have a loving grandmother like her. Nobody can compete her loving and understanding..

Sweet memories of her:

Ya yg ajar becgup hehehe...
Kami selalu lepak di bawah pokok ceri blakang umah Lrg 5
Kami selalu duduk2 di beranda and as usual, aku pakai spindit ja (masa kecik la)
Ya paling suka cubit ah lengan kalau gauk
Kuat menyumpah tapi hatinya baik
Selalu becali =)
Ya ajar banyak ilmu yg patutnya dipelajari
Abis buku exercise di kuyaknya utk buat kuih rempah =)
Dulu selalu dangani nenek ke kabunnya.. Siuk ada punduk damit, dpt berangin2
She was always there to listen
She was the one who took care of me coz dulu nada org gaji
She was always there for me.

I mish you nenek.. very very much. If i could turn back time, I would go back to the day i was born so that i can spent longer time wif you.. and peluk cium Nenek puas2. Mudahan roh nenek di cucuri rahmat. Amin.. Al-fatihah..

Yesterday 27.09.08

2008-09-28T11:48:00.003+08:00

My whole Saturday was wasted. I was at home, did some ironing and then slept around 5+ until 9+. Meg came over with her sis to have a few chit chat. She gave a Raya card and a gift (which i cant mentioned it here, ya nda suruh ehehe).

Anyway, while she was at my house, Hopes sms me. So we made a plan to meet and play pool. He deliberately didnt tell me Wachai was with him. Hutangg eeee... After few rounds of pool with BOomZ, Hopes and Wachai, Apple and Tapir droped by to join. Siuk jua la coz lama dah nda main pool.

I slept at 6am.. Downloaded 10 games (Terima Kasih Reflexive~!) and had an UNO battle with BurnOut ehehe.. You lose again Man~!! yea yea..

When i was at the in-laws' house

2008-09-28T11:32:00.003+08:00

Sorry ladies, the pictures are too good NOT to be posted hahahaha

My Web

2008-09-26T14:55:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT

BERAYA

BLOGKU

YANG

BECUCUL

ANI

ahaha.. kuih minuman bawa sendiri

Memory of my fantasy

2008-09-26T03:41:00.002+08:00

When i think of my younger life, your images flash through my mind

Piercing my heart but yet making me smile

I was here, always for you

Wishing for love to come true

But sadly, you were too blind to see

That i was always here to pleased

Always here to love you

For if you just only knew

How i felt inside

You may know how hard it is for me to decide

To leave and go on

Or to stay and hold on

I love you and i always will

Coz i can never stop to feel

All the love that just wont go away

And it still wanting to stay

All i can do is wish for your happiness

And chase away all your sadness

All i am asking please dont forget me dear

The person who was in your life before her

Sungkai sambil BBQ at Bumz's House

2008-09-26T03:32:00.003+08:00

Waaaa~!!! Thanks to the people who came... To Sis Avyy, Sis lilyanie722, Mali, Reamy, Meg, Roza, Sheba, Mz^Leo, Mr^Leo, Spyking, sL55, w\, Hopes and Daniel. A special thank you to Hubby, BOomZ14, Qaqa AnGeLRoSe and Bro Apple for helping me during the preparation.

It was a blast! Alhamdullilah makanan cukup ehehe.. Thank you pada yg sudi datang dari jauh.. then akhir g balik. Cian ee...

Soe Lop.. ada bawang spaghetti ah wakakaka..

Sesi menjual beli kuih raya di opis

2008-09-25T20:46:00.003+08:00

Fratini's Restaurant (23.09.2008) and Original Malay Village

2008-09-24T15:48:00.005+08:00

We were having our sungkai at Fratinis Restaurant. I never fancy Italian Food actually but now i got hooked on Linguini Marinara.. NYAMANNNN~!! Definitely will order it again soon. Thanks to Ummie and Qaqa Angel for introducing it to me =)

After sungkai, we went to the Original Malay Village (Kpg Melayu Asli). Hang out and played Bunga Api. Ummie la punya kaja.. hehehe.. Siukkkkk~!! Kira semangat raya uhuuu

How my niece say the susu~

2008-09-24T15:36:00.002+08:00

My Tag - Should, Would and Could~

2008-09-22T17:35:00.007+08:00

SHOULD.....

Should you bring make-up to school/work?

- Yup if you are attending a make-up school (ehe.. nda paham) and No.. I dont use make up to work.

Should you love somebody that didn't love you?

- If there is no harm in doing it.. Just don't get carried away.

Should you bully small kids?

- Tease maybe a lil bit.. Bully? unless they are a bullier themselves (jaat ahahah)

Should you find another love this moment?

- Nah.. I am happy with who i have now.

Should you join any sports in your school? What will you join?

- Not studying at the moment but i used to play Basketball, Softball and Bowling.

Should you been in a relationship right now?

- I am =)

WOULD YOU.....

Would you go to bed after doing this survey?

- Nahh.. I'm going out later with Roza and Meg.

Would you go to The Mall alone?

- Yup.. but i'm always with my sis so i am never alone =)

Would you run inside the mosque?

- Gilax x ehe..

Would you bite your nails?

- Used to when i was younger.

Would you bring your handphone to school?

- Yup. My first hp was when i was in Form 5.

DO YOU.....

Do you sleep with teddy?

- Nope. Not my teddy but my Patrix, my huggable delicious patrix.

Do you often go to school/work in moody mood?

- Sometimes~ erm.. Most of the time ahax

Do you love your ex-boyfriend?

- .. No.

Do you ever call your self stupid?

- Occasionally.

Do you feel sick of love?

- Nope.. I am full of it ^_^

COULD YOU.....

Could you jump from the top of the building?

- No unless there's a trampoline or i am strapped with a good parachute or i am a SUPERGAL!

Could you run away from home only because of your mother is mad at you?

- I did thought of it before but i didnt do it because.. It's a stupid thing to do. It's not like she's going to kill me or sell me off~

Could you kiss your grandparents?

- Yup. if i still have them =(

Could you go to the cinema with your ex?

- yeah if we are friends and if they can survive. Coz i am going with my hubby hahaha

Could you hug your lil' sis/bro?

- I would but he would think im being disgusting =)

Could you go for a blind date?

- Been there, done that and Eeewww~

Could you go to school/work without socks?

- Depends on what type of footwear i am wearing.

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What are you waiting for right now?

- The moment i finish this tag and start to tag the others =x

1 word to describe yourself.

- Kinky?

5 things that you have that are valuable.

- My loved ones, my hps, my Patrix, my blogs and friends.

What is Love that you know?

- An emotions full of happiness yet sadness, full of sacrifise and pain.

Wonderful feelings that can either kill you or heal you (Eyohh~ dramatix i ah)

What are your current probs right now?

- My payut selalu sakit and.. $$$$$$

Are there any people hating you?

- Hahahaha.. Who doesnt hate a byatch?

Does love make us die? Why?

- Depends what type of a person you are. Because you can either see it as a positive point or negative.

What are you doing right now?

- DUH~!!

A NEW BLOG ON THE LOOSEEEEE~!

2008-09-21T22:56:00.001+08:00

I have created a new blog combined with other blogger tonight hehehe.. Yeay~! Wasted aku ah~

By the way, i have linked it so check out 'The Nutz Cancer' blog =) Yippeeee~!!

Today 21.09.2008

2008-09-21T19:56:00.004+08:00

Nothing much happened today except most of my time i spent on sleeping hahaha.. What a waste on a Sunday! I slept around 6am this morning. Spent my night chatting, editing my fs & blog, watching tv and mostly playing my new games from Reflexive! The heaven of having a code breaker =)

I guess i can be a hacker in a way.. Well.. i did manage to play games i got from internet for free =) and i managed to hack a certain somebody's email (not without purpose. He deserved it anyway).

Tonight, i wanna spend my night helping my new blogger friends, Nadyaa and Fecca on their new blogs. I will include the steps on changing blog template. Maybe mine is a long cut but if anybody have a shortcut please inform me yaaa...

1) After signing in your blogger account, you come to the first page called 'The Dashboard'

2) Under the heading of your blog title, you can chose either New Post, Edit Posts, Settings, Layout (sometimes Template) and View blog. If you still have TEMPLATE instead of Layout then you need to upgrade it. Click on it and go to Pick New Template and just upgrade and follow whatever it asked you to do.

3) Choose your web template (from whatever website, most famous is Pyzam)

4) Copy and paste at Edit HTML. Here is the tricky part. There is something in the HTML Code that you need to erase.

The very end of HTML Code.. you will find these:

Then your new blog template can be upload.

To add a block list:

1) Go to Layout - Page elements then add gadget 'Blog List'.

(Please take note: Be careful. Change your layout first or all your widget will be deleted)

Raya coming soon

2008-09-20T23:32:00.001+08:00

OMG!! I alum send la my kain to the tailor~ Matai2... Cana ni ah?? Sapa2 yg tau tailor utk last minute, inform ahhh~!! kain utk first day raya ahhh... ayoyo~!! Amma~!! (nah.. kuar tah bahasa lain)

20.09.08

2008-09-20T18:43:00.000+08:00

Early this morning around 12+, i went out with apple and his friend. Sampat kami singgah ah Kpg Melayu Asli. Kali terjumpa drg c w\, bfnya, imam and kawan2nya. I dont want to dwell further what happened after that.

Today, im busy with helping c Pinky usai blognya. Well done Pinky! Welcome to blogging world. I hope you will enjoy it ahax. Hari tu i was helping Eqah but now... alum j0a beupdatenya ahaha.. Bz la tu.

So damn boredd!!

Spending time with baby fruits 1909

2008-09-20T18:40:00.003+08:00

Belabih & Bulatz

2008-09-20T18:27:00.001+08:00

See + Listen + Hear = Gossips *ahaks*

Wondering..

daymare..not nightmare

busy and tiring but fun!

Different Sizes

Counter

cry cry crying all the way~

breast pump

being a mom

Baby boy!!

2nd trimester

Babies

List

Forgotten

Lonely

Guilt..

2010

My boys..

A long time..

Thought of the day - 1354 10/02/09

Meaning Of Love

Cape No. 7

Obladi Oblada~

Weekend with Siblings (last month i think~) Ptg.. kayu Tiga.. Malam.. Charade Game

Once Upon A Time @ Miri

Just Snapping photos

The day Reamy blanja mamam di Mall

'Uguy'

Miri

Memories..

Salleh's 'B' Day

Farewell memories @ Kate's.. Thank you kawan2 =p

As promise.. Courtesy of MeiMei's Digital Camera =)

Tagged from iwee/Giok

Wawawa kana lanja~

ahaha.. Batah2

ST12 - Saat Terakhir

Goodbye to Shafiee Hassan & Maskufah

Dedicated to Mohd Hatta HMA

Raya Gathering & Farewell

Trip to Mulah Hatta's crib

i'm back~

Majlis tahlil @ Lubok Meranti

A comment from Anonymous

Tahlil @ Room 22

Last picture in Temburong

Words from Leslie Bin William (OTTS-8)

In Memory

Apology to all

Day at Pasar Gadong 23.10.08

Cemani usul kambing seekor kana salai.. Mcm alien

Saja~

Rainbow on my way to work~

Mini 0pen 0ffice 20.10

Raya Celebrati0n @ Atrium (20.10)

0pen h0use @ kak Hashimah Sidek & Bro Ash (17.10.08)

Creative mind

Mohd Helmi @ Boi (Part 2)

For BOomZ14

What i can remember..

09 - 10 / 10 / 2008

pix 0f kpg ayer trip fr0m apple's hp

k0nt0t, my gauk cat

Happy 14th Birthday Baby Uha~ 09.10.08 (Masy's House)

A L0ose M0od

Take a Bow - Rihanna

Happy Anniversary to Wanee & Irdi 06.10.08

Get Well Soon sL55

Today 06.10.2008

Correction

Quiz.. Siapakah ini?

Kpg Ayer ehehe... w\ ketakutan naik bot (Everything in the video)

4th day raya.. 05.10.08 (BumZ Braya)

3rd day of raya.. 04.10.08

2nd day of raya.. 03.10.2008

1st day of raya.. 02.10.08

The night of raya

Es0k raya! 2nd 0ct 2008

Terlampau pandai parking

Angel's 0ffice m0ve 30.09.08

See + Listen + Hear = Gossips ahaks